I had a career, I was out Wednesday to Sunday, with a social life to envy and basically, I was too selfish to be a parent!
I. Could. Not. Be. Pregnant! It wasn’t even an option.
That night I got home, sat in bed with my (now ex) partner and Googled the pregnancy symptoms. I threw the laptop at him and burst in to tears. I had every symptom. I was heartbroken. The test results came back as positive the next day and that week, we started to inform our family and close friends.
It later transpires, that she believes it was taken entirely out of context… I’m not sure HOW you CAN take something like
that out of context, but hey hoe.
I can only assume it was down to jealousy. I am a great believer in having a positive attitude and of avoiding all negativity, but have to admit, this one still leaves me feeling slightly bitter as she'd never even met me.
Moving on....
It took me weeks to accept what was happening to my body, but after that first scan, it all sank in.
It had been so surreal up until that point, that all I could focus on was how ill I was feeling and how everyone seemed to be more excited that I was.
The next few month were rocky; feeling ill, feeling fat, watching my body change completely outside of my control, swelling so much that I looked like the offspring of the elephant man. It was awful! And to top it off, she was going to be a summer baby, and of course, for the first time in years, we had an exceptionally hot summer and I swelled up even more. The joy!
Then on the 14th July 2010 at 9.25am, we welcomed Amelia Grace into the world.
I was handed the most beautiful thing I had ever seen in my life, and all off a sudden, those party nights, my career, the people who couldn’t be happy for us, they disappeared. They didn’t exist, and at the end of the day, when the visiting was over, and it was just the three of us sat on the bed, everything just felt perfect. Nothing, for as long as I live, will ever remove that memory, and that feeling that everything was just complete.
We were perfectly complete.... That was until four months later..... When I found out I was pregnant AGAIN!